Written September 5, 2016
Think about that last sentence. “Hate is great a burden to bear.” How do you feel when you hate someone, some place or some things? How do you feel physically, mentally, emotionally, even spiritually? Feels kinda crappy huh? Maybe your stomach is upset. You are either not hungry or you overeat. Maybe you feel like there’s two tons of weight on your shoulders. Mentally you may not be able to concentrate, emotionally you are either sad, hurt, angry, or all of the above. Spiritually you might feel empty. And that’s just a short list of how you may feel. Holding on to those feelings actually hurts your body like taking poison. It increases our chances for a heart attack or stroke. The very least that can happen is you might have sleeping problems, stomach ulcers, or severe nausea. When we hate a person place or thing we have intense hostility and aversion it usually comes from a place of fear, anger, or sense of injury. Having hate in your heart is often times because of a resentment whether it’s conscious or not. Holding a resentment is like me taking poison and waiting for you to die. Many times tho, the one holding the resentment and drinking the poison is the one who dies little by little, bit by bit. For myself currently I hate my physical health.
I’ve learned this the hard way. I haven’t(knock on wood) had problems with a heart attack or stroke, but I have had many of the other issues. I’m unable to do half the things I used to due to pain and heart issues. I was told it’s because of stress. Even tho I created a “woman cave” and I play in the garden it’s not enough. Posting all the positive affirmations and platitudes can help for a short time. The only way that I can possibly turn this around is to release my resentments and live the positive stuff I write. I try talking to others to see if I’m the only one with crazy thoughts, look at my part in the situation, makes amends when possible and work towards forgiveness. I work to forgive others for myself and my heart. Whatever the case may be the feeling of love is much better than hate. Sure I need to make other lifestyle changes like eating right and exercising too. Not to say that I haven’t been working on that already but I need to step up my game. I don’t want to have a heart attack and open heart surgery at an early age. Tho I’m not afraid to die, I don’t want to at an early age. (Chuckle) I remember a time when I thought someone my age was old and I couldn’t see my life past the age of 25 – 30 even tho I’m “29” now. 😉
Thought for the day: What anger and hatred are you holding on to? Wouldn’t it be nice to lighten that load?